It’s been sometime into my Ph.D. – a roller coaster of emotions – last of the phrases that could sum up my journey. Before I delve more into it, the pandemic toppled my health, like any other, and found it incredibly difficult getting back to normalcy. Although, I tend to stray away from repenting on that, and perhaps wearing it like armor helped me to move forward. On the other hand, during the pandemic, I researched more on why people started the concept of a Ph.D. and what it takes to be a Ph.D. student. As far as my understanding goes, it’s a framework designed to study the observations that were made, and obtain a structure while understanding nature’s play. In fact, I also thought more about the expansion – The Doctorate of Philosophy, and that gave me a profound sense of a gap. The framework has been quite instrumental in amassing your thoughts and connecting the dots with the observations. The gap that haunts me - the advent of peer-reviewed journals, tenure tracks, and things that gave us a sense of insecurity has adulterated or overshadowed the joys that define it.
Given the time I spent on my Ph.D., engineering inner self coupled with academics had a synergistic effect on me. It has become clearer to invest more time to understand the weakness and how you deal with it. Even though, my strengths have always had a positive impact on me, working a way out of my shortcomings is definitely the one to be cherished. A quote from Marie Curie strongly resonates with my current mindset – “There’s nothing to be feared, it has to be only understood.” A strong will to re-orient my mindset toward understanding the process than activating the panic mode bolstered my confidence. Above all, spending time away from home, made me think – the farther you live away from home, the more you care about your family.
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